Freakentastic

Lately I’ve been so tired and exhausted.

This. and Cheerleading.

Cheer everyyyy night this week. Which is pretty unusual. But tonight’s game I’m actually looking forward to. Prolly because I’m in charge tonight. =]

haha. Next year I’m going to try to still be assistant coach like I was planning on. But now with everything going on, I don’t know if that’d be able to happen like I planned.

My sister is going to be on the team next year as a freshman. Awww…she’s growing up so fast!! Almost 14 already! lol

Kaiden James. =]

Don’t judge me because of him.

I’m still me, just more mature and responsible.

it was my choice, and if you’re truly my friend…you’d support me.

Only 136 more days! =]

Still feeling kinda sick. It’s okay, I guess. At least I know what’s going on now. Like I said, it’s going to affect my life alot now.

The friends that I could trust pretty much know right now. And they’re supporting me and everything. So are my parents which is more than I can ask for.

Headaches suck. =\.

I don’t know what to do about my time capsule page. 

Everything’s pretty much exhausting me out right now. Hard to concentrate. But it’s important now more than ever to. 

I love making the slits in the tin foil lid of the orange juices that I pretty much drink everyday.

It’s fun. lol wow.

There’s so much to deal with lately.

This weekend has pretty much changed my life in a little small way. Literally.

And it’s more of the fact coming into realization that it’s real. That’s the only difference between this week and last week. It’s kinda bringing me and my mom together in a funny sort of way and pretty much things are going to never be the same.

Not with friends, not with family. 

Just different.

And I don’t mind it. 

I’ve grown up a lot in the past 24 hours. Now, I pretty much do feel like an adult. 18 year old adult. 

*sigh.*

I’ll get through this all. 

=]. <3.

I have a job interview today. =]

And a pretty good chance of getting the job.

My fam has known Debbie the manager for quite a few years.

Annnddddd…if I do get hired. I getta work with her HOTT! sons. =]

Estupidio! 

I freaken hate almost everything today!

I went home yesterday after 4th hour with the worst cramps and everything. It sucked and hurt.

Today is working either. I just want to listen to music. That’s all. I don’t care about anything else. 

Not right now, and it’s kinda funny how people think I do.

I forgot to dress up today like I was supposed to but I don’t really care. I didn’t feel good, still don’t and prolly won’t for a while. But I had to come to school today and tomorrow because of the stupid game on Friday.

And to be quite honest, this blog thing is also pissing me off. The way it keeps saving and stopping my typing. LOL.

Well…Time to look for stuff to put into my “web-based Time Capsule.”

Not feeling the greatest.

I might call my mom later and ask if it’d be okay if Aaron took me home at lunch if he’d be willing to. She might say yes because she wouldn’t have to pick me up, but I don’t know for sure. My younger sister got to stay home like two days ago or something because “her throat hurt.” Right. I feel like I actually might throw up, I’m tired. I stayed up late last night just reading New Moon. I read the whole book yesterday from after school, took a break at practice, then just kept reading it after practice until 12:30 a.m. When I finally shut the book and went to sleep. 

So it issss my fault that I’m tired. But I don’t know why I’m not feeling good.

L and Kylee weren’t on the bus this morning either which didn’t help things. 

And this morning I found out that L is prolly going to drop outta school and get his GED then join the military. 

*sigh.*

His choice, I’d still support him and everything. 

I miss him like crazy. 

What Bella went through with Edward in this second book sorta reminded me of me and L. It wasn’t that obsessive or anything and not so really zombie for monthsish…but just the feeling that you really want to be with that someone that you felt such a good connection and then it’s just….gone. 

It’s kinda hard.

But I’ll live.

He looked so freaken hottttt this morning.

I hate when he wears his hat! It makes him look like 8723940823948 times better! 

=\ waaaah.

I wanted to just go and hug him.

But I was scared.

He wouldn’t have minded. But I mean, still.

My friend Chrissy thinks that me and him are “meant to be together.”

That’s kinda funny since we AREN’T together anymore. =[

I don’t know if we’re going to have another chance.

I Hope.

Nothing I can really do right now. So yahhhs. I’m pretty much still tired as HeCk. 

kinda sick actually,

which isn’t good for quite a few reasons.

Tired, too. Doesn’t help very much.

Got a game tonight. =\ Not really looking forward to it, but since it’s a girl’s game, not a lot of people really go. So whatever. Just gotta suck it up and maybe I get to stay home tomorrow or something. Either way I have a feeling that I’m not going to be feeling good for a while. Or maybe it’s just because I’m tired. Whatever.

“L” watched me get on the bus this morning. Which was like ummm…don’t. haha. I don’t mind, but if I like tripped or something…I guess it’d be something for us to laugh about. 

I was upset that Jackie wasn’t here or Josh so L couldn’t come over from Orion or anything. 

Well, now I’m pretty much zonking out so agh. 

No.
I want a snow day.
This sucks.
There were so many accidents this morning it’s not funny.

I don’t wanna go out for lunch either. bad luck with Aaron’s car.

No way.

Things are going okay lately.

Alot of things on my mind that are kinda stressing and all that.

But I’ll deal.

Hopefully.